How does one stay true to oneself? When I was a teenager I was a completely different person than I am now. I lived by a different set of values and different things mattered in my life. Later on I was a young adult who was again oriented on other things. As a married woman I became passionate about art and that’s when I had painted all my paintings. That changed with an arrival of my firstborn and I was created a mother. The mom phase is so incomparable to the previous ones in my life that sometimes I am wondering whether I am losing my own identity and who I am now. This is so difficult to define because I am used now to satisfy my own needs in the last order of importance. I am pondering how that happened that I became who I am now. And I am wondering who I am going to be in five years time. My children will be older and more independent and I am sure there will be a change in my life by then. I know my life will slowly change its course and will evolve into something new and exciting. I just can’t grasp it yet.
In meantime, I am curious who I really am, where my journey is taking me. Yes, there are many labels I could use to define myself and as I am thinking of it now, I choose not to do this because the labels not only define but also confine and limit me. It started to bother me to describe myself in terms of motherhood and homeschooling even though this are the most prominent things I am busy with in my life. But as I am rereading my blog I am accutely aware how onesided this has become. I write about these things because they are the easiest to tackle and yet there are many aspects that I want to address but they are sometimes too elusive.