When my younger one was born I had a baby blues. In fact, I was overtaken by my emotions and felt really vulnerable. Anything could throw me out of my balance. I was feeling guilty about having my eldest one left to her own resources while tending to my precious newborn. I was weeping a lot and was miserable. It was very hard for me to adjust to being a mom of two. That’s why I started going to a playgroup. I was really lucky as I found an AP playgroup and a tandem nursing playgroup in my vicinity.
When my first one was born I took her out for the first time when she was 6 weeks, with my younger one, I was out the third day postpartum. Honestly, I felt like going out was saving my sanity, I was able to see the people, baby was happy in a sling and my toddler interested in outside world. It was a matter of survival for me, plus I was getting a valuable support from women going through the same motherhood tribulations at that time. Being a responsive mother who chose bedsharing, tandem nursing, non-vaxing, homeschooling meant I was virtually alone in my parenting decisions but finding AP playgroup changed that completely. I was finally able to talk about my doubts, find answers and just plainly enjoy some adult conversation.
But recently I noticed that I don’t crave the Wednesday playgroup anymore. My girls grew up and are more independent. One still needs her nap around that time and I don’t like to rush out of the house just to leave the park early so she still can nap around noon. I know this may change if/when we add a new baby to our family but for now I am comfortable in my parenting decisions and I don’t feel like I need to be reassured by other women. Maybe it is a good thing. Of course, over the time, I found some friends there and I enjoy their company, too.